Hi Hi
It's been a looonnng time but the past three weeks have been wonderful yet stressful. The one fun thing was seeing Dr. Patch Adam (the real one and not the movie) giving his schpeal. It was great and funny until his opening for Q&A, then it went downhill to disappointment. He was all for compassion and giving and just trying to brighten up kids' day by being clowns. He also showed a couple of video clips but they were quite disturbing. At least that's what I thought of them. The Q&A was a disaster because he did not answer the questions being asked and his answers were the same one for everything questions, just worded differently. It was here that I saw his hipocricy on his philosophy. He's all about compassion and kindness but he's absolutely violent about government. Also he talked about religions and how he "pretends" to believe the religion of the kids that he clowning and that's done because he's just turn it to himself. So man centered. That was just a sad and disappointing nite for me.
Then the weeks of the last batch of test and finals hit. Boy! was that crazy. The last batch of tests were ok and relatively normal. But the finals, talk about stress and craziness and about not sleeping. I don't think I've slept more than 4 hrs a nite and caffeine kept me going for the last three days of tests. It was a week of keep going and nervousness and praying that I'll pass the tests and the classes. By the end of the week, my apartment looked like I had a tornado tore through it multiple times and plates stacked up the highest it has ever been. I was on salad and pizzas and sandwiches all b/c they take the least amount of time to make and eat. By the end of the week, it was huge breath letting go and physically drained. Nothing was ever like that before. Then I wanted to take a nap before cleaning my apartment but I couldn't fall asleep for the longest time. It was weird!
Side note: A funny story happened during that week. I drove to the state school to use their library to study. Their library atmosphere was very much like the Anderson library at UCLA so I fell in love with it. I was there until 9pm and forgot that it's been at freezing temps after dark. So I got to my car and saw that it was covered in ice. So me, being a Cali girl, I just started my car and sat inside for good 10 mins to thaw out my car even though I only live like 5 mins away. ::sigh:: I didn't have an ice scrapper to scrap off the ice so I can drive. silly me. Then the walk from my car in the lot to my apartment has completely freeze me so I had to take a really hot shower to thaw. How sad!!!!
And now I'm HOME!!!!! The trip home was long. It was an all day event with driving 3hrs to airport and flying for 4 hrs with 2hrs of layover at Dallas. I was a complete zombie by the time I got home. I went out to dinner last nite and the food was awesome! That's what I was missing, the good Chinese food from Cali. (Today I had some rice and veggies for lunch and I told my bro that rice was good too :) since I don't have good Chinese rice at school) I had persimmons today and boy were they great. hehe. I just realize that right now, any Chinese food or fruit would great since I've been Chinese deprived for the last 3-4months.
These past couple of weeks have definitely been draining physically and spiritually as well. It was a lot of trusting the Lord and having the strong faith that He knows what He's doing with me in med school and crazy tests that I was taking. Half of the time, I felt like I don't even have the physical strength to get up every morning at 4:30 and go to bed around midnite and spend all the rest of the day studying. He definitely showed me how faithful He's been and how His promises are just that, His. It's been wonderful to see how my finals week have been done throught God's grace especially in some of the classes that I've been struggling.
I'm excited too because I have started an accountability group through the Bible study there and I'm sort of a leader of the group. The girls I've got are great and I'm excited to see how this would work in my life this year at school. I don't know what I'm going to do with them especially since we only meet one hour once a week because of our crazy schedule. But it's exciting nonetheless.
Anyways, I think this is the Cliff note version of my lovely crazy weeks. Laters.
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